I hate this.

I want to get better.

The Psalms are filled with lament, grief, acceptance, and praise.

Here’s my own Psalm for this week (+a couple pictures from this year’s adventures!)

I hate this;

I want to get better.

Climb mountains with my children

Camp in forest glens

Dance upon cracked desert

Dive in crashing waves

I hate this;

I want to get better.

I’m a fly, observing everyone’s condition

I’m immobile, a despicable deposition

I’m always ill–pain wasn’t the dream

I’m eternally exhausted, not my ideal

I hate this;

I want to get better.

Fill me with compassion for the hurting

Grant me the favor to still find Wondering

Empty me of my impossible agenda

Deepen my empathy for the chronically ill

I hate this

I want to get better.

Sustain me through the suffering:

Pain is not mine alone;

It belongs to our groaning world

That too, longs to be healed

I hate this;

I want to get better.

While I am here, let me still rejoice!

While poured out, Ancient Power come alive!

When I feel, I’ll be secured by comfort

When I am still, I will be filled

I hate this;

I want to get better.

Heal me, O God, and I will be healed!

Save me, O, God, and I will be saved!

I can curse You–and curse the Universe!

But that brings no comfort

That will not empower me

Heal me, O God, and I will be healed!

Save me, O, God, and I will be saved!

For You hear my lament and praise

Yes, I hate this;

I want to get better

But I meditate on good, given to me

Embrace the present season,

Here I am free

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